28 June 2008
What am I striving for? I already married the perfect woman, yet I am vain and focus each day’s schedule around my fitness regimen. My job provides for all our needs (and her wants), yet I am restless in pursuing greater financial stability. I read to learn and expand my horizons- just in case I get a slot on Jeopardy. There is no logical reason to strive for improvement in any aspect of a life and future I have no absolute control over. I find myself constantly working to improve…I read, I study, I plan, I contemplate, I daydream, I analyze, I discipline, I practice…and I smile.
I am acutely aware that the only things I am taking with me are the knowledge and intelligence I attain in this life, the sublime relationships I foster and endear with those I love, and the spiritual reserve of experience and progression I make while on this earth. So why is so much of my effort focused on the temporal ambitions of this mortal? I have resolved that I still need to progress on a balanced playing field. I could have a lifetime of service to the kingdom ahead of me if I strengthen and care for the mechanism- so I am content that improving my fitness and health will do wonders for my long-term wellbeing. Financial security will avoid tensions on the home front and allow the freedom to respond to the Lord’s call whenever and wherever it may come. All the temporal needs and ambitions are a supporting cast to the success of my spiritual progression. My persistent indulgences, playing the guitar and working on the mustang…well, that just keeps me sane.